new.music.my l-ver is back...

ok. so those that know me know that i for the most part am more into hiphop than r&b. but when news comes out like this. i get excited. probably my favorite female singer {i really gotta think about that statement}Sade releases the first single from her new album “Soldier of L-ve”. The highly anticipated new album will be released in February 2010. Word on the street is that she'll have a collabo between her and Maxwell too. i can hear the babies being born in November of 2010 now lol. this is her new single. Soldier.of.L-ve. take a listen

...whymencheat/howtopreventit...kinda

i know, i know, you missed me like i missed YOU.

but let me get right into this one and ruffle some feathers.

enjoy.

At first you was somethin i denied

something i would slide

just to do something in the ride

but shorty, its something you provide

cuz the entree' aint as good without something on the side

ya know??

-loso

cant.let.you.go


So I was watching videos this morning {#dontjudgeme}, i saw an old school video that got me thinking, it was Loso's "Can't Let You Go", I know.I know a lot of yall ladies can't stand that song but its honestly and truly an honest song, so I figured I'd chime in on the idea as well as far as why men cheat. Want the real answer?

insert drumroll here.....

Look no further than in the mirror.....

I KNOW I just pissed some of yall off with that but hear me out. Of course I could say that "most guys do it because of insecurity....blah blah blah" or "he did it just cuz he's an asshole....yea yea yea", honestly that would be entirely too easy so I decided to look at it from a different vantage point. & don't worry I'll give you the real secret to keeping your man from cheating on you at the end too lol.

But I'ma just jump right into this too just so you know. Just like women, its extremely hard FOR GUYS to find someone who has everything you want so until we find that, we date pieces of women so that they equal up to a "whole" in our mind. Men have this crazy idea that we need to have everything we want, and if I can't get it in one person, then ill look for as many as I can until I'm fulfilled. Case in point, sometimes you have a chick who you can talk to, but who sexually doesn't do it for you, but then theres that one where the sex is great but there's nothing else to it then you have ya chick who just looks GOOD, period she's just pretty as all hell, she's the arm candy, but thats where it stops. but between those 3 women right there you have someone who looks good, who you can talk to and whos a freak........#FTW. Now you might have another who's just a rider, or another who's rich and well connected or another who can cook her ass off or another who's just a sweetheart. Everybody serves their purpose honestly, lots of times with guys, the girl who they cheat with, gives them something that their main couldn't, in some way, shape or form. BUT for the record I am NOT saying that EVERY guy cheats, but I am trying to tell you why those that do, do. Hopefully that was beneficial to you but now for the good part for my ladies.

How to keep your man from cheating.

everybody.listening???

1. Choose the RIGHT person for YOU.ok. I'm guilty of this my damn self but we know that everyone wants the model looks with all the trimmings but that's not gonna be the case for everyone. You know what you want and NEED. So if you're not getting that from jump. Why move forward? YOU'RE SETTLING!! Like if I know we have great conversation but sexually, there's no spark, and I know that, why try and play yourself? Lots of people get in these "realtionships with these epople who they know arent right for them because theyre afraid of being by themselves so they settle and end up pissed in the end. Be honest, don't settle and be patient.

2. Don't expect big things from little people.Kind of goes with no. 1 but whatever, if you're dating someone who you have bad feelings about, if you know their past and its shady, why you think it would be anything less with you?

3. Be DIFFERENT, Keep Him Intrigued.Ladies I can't stress this enough and the same for fellas too but BE.DIFFERENT. Stand.Out.put whoever you're interested in onto different things. Don't be like everyone else. Instead of going to the movies, go see a movie on the lawn Tnot right now in December, but you know what I mean), go on a date to the zoo, take him to a concert/show {yea, he'll bitch and moan about it, but he'll go and slightly enjoy it, maybe a little more} but know that he will alllwwwwaaaayyysss remember that he did that with you. I can tell you about all the "different" dates that I've been on, I remember I went to a ballroom dancing class, ice skating, bikram yoga, and I remember all those dates and people because they were DIFFERENT. Oh, and ladies the different thing doesn't stop on dates, you have to intrigue a dude in a lot of different ways, and sexually is very important too.. Get inside your dudes head mentally ladies! If yall are chillin at his apt or yours. He's chillin on the couch watching a game or something and you're doing what you do and you wanna spice things up tell him you wanna cook for him. do it in some boy shorts, a sexy bra and heels lol, yall might not eat the food immediately, but you'll most certainly work up an appetite lol. AND he'll REMEMBER that.

That's just a small one thing but I can't give yall everything lol. Now also let me be the first to say these things will not completely prevent your guy from cheating Ladies, SORRY. But what they will do is minimize the risk.

btw. you're all welcome.

.:damn.bey:.

{clearing throat} hey. im back. sorry about the delay but my man-ness couldn't let this video go unnoticed. for the record, bey looks UNREAL in this video. and not gonna lie i do like her being a little raunch in this one, save that classy sh#t for halo, i know she made a lot of her conservative fans gasp and clutch their pearls lol. but for your viewing pleasure. here's bey and the video for her new single video phone


oh,and lady gaga too.
#noshade to gaga, but shes a complete accessory in this video. i damn near missed her for looking at bey first time i saw it lol. -kanye.shrug-

.:Thank.Me.Later:.

.......so to say that I've been asked a few times why I spell l-ve like I do would definitely be the understatement of the year. 9 times outta 10 I usually don't even like saying it out loud lol but I will write it, like this....so I guess you want me to explain why now huh?

I actually got it from one of the most intriguing people that you never thought that would be intriguing on Twitter, a stripper from Magic City stripclub in Atl @brookandthecity. For one, don't.judge.me (or her for that matter) and for two, if you have these preconceived notions that all strippers are stupid, ghetto shake dancers whose mommas probably weren't there or whatever and she might be the same in some ways but the wit and intellect of her tweets and the fact that she is completely ok with being completely unapologetically herself is dope to me. I recommend that everyone follow her, it will completely change your opinion on strippers lol. And she's a true to life HOV fan too...enough said. But one thing that stood out about her was the way that she never EVER wrote out the word l-ve. Never. When I heard the explanation, it made perfect sense to ME. So I do admit, I bit off it. But now that you have the background behind it, let me explain.

.....i truly and honestly feel like its a really offensive word that a lot of people throw around not really knowing its power or the weight that it really holds. Lots of people throw it around and really don't know the effect that it has on the people that its said to. People always act like fuck or shit are the offensive four letter words. they're.not. Think about it. To fuck, that's eaaaasy, its simple in the action and in saying it. But l-ve, if you say it and don't mean it, its damn near abusive to the person you say it to. So i spell it like i do to avoid confusion lol.So hopefully that makes it make sense to those who asked. Thank.Me.Later.

#sidenote. this is really real to me, like you might look at it as me just being jaded but honestly, I've been there and I've seen what it can do when its used undeservedly and not meant and its not pretty. So I choose not to use it to avoid all of that. Do I think that the "o" will ever come back? Yes, of course, but for now this is me. I like that.

law.46

From the 48 Laws of Power.

Law 46.

never.appear.too.perfect

Appearing better than others is always dangerous, but even more dangerous of all is to appear to have no faults or weaknesses. Envy creates silent enemies. It is smart to occasionally display defects, and admit to harmless vices, in order to deflect envy and appear more human and approachable. Only gods and the dead can seem perfect with impunity.

lesson.learned.

growing up and into my young adult life, i always thought that the journey to self perfection was somewhat the journey of life. You figure out what your "problems" are, if you don't want them to be problems, you fix them, if you don't you relish in them because thats what make you YOU. i also thought that your problems shouldn't be visible to the world and everyone isn't in your business, shouldn't know your business, period {well, i still think that}. But I realized a lot last year that imperfections or chinks (sp) in the armor make others who even subconsciously know they aren't even in the same game as you, feel more connected to you. eventhough we all know that jealousy is a weak emotion, a lot of people still deal with it and just were brought up differently. -shrugs- because i wasnt concerned with being like the people that i was around and expecting to follow me at one point, i was me and fine with it. you do somewhere and sometimes need to have something or someone to relate to. being relatable as a leader is something that is paramount, apparently. your people have to like you but at the same time want to follow you because they know that whatever you're going to do, you're gonna win. you have to be able to seperate yourself as the leader or the boss but at the same time still be human to others and make people feel like you have a lot in common. its a delicate balance, man. but its something that if you can perfect it, you.win.

eerie.:read.this:.

you ever feel like someone who has never met you knows you better than people who you've been around for years?? yea. i read this article and it completely bugged me out, not in a bad way but kinda in a good way that I wasn't the only person like this lol. it was crazy accurate. Now every single part of this isn't 100% ACCURATE to me. a.lot.is.but.not.all. oh and for the record, i know i'm not a rockstar.technically, but for the overall effect and what i look for in women, it'll make sense. i'll respond to it probably like next week to it but i'd l-ve to see what you have to say about it. but read the whole thing {i know ya'll your lives aren't that exciting that you don't have time to read this} to understand me. so without further ado....

read.this.

http://www.anewmode.com/dating-relationships/dating-the-popular-guy/

read.&.discuss.

i.wrote.this.when.i.was.19.wow

Sooooo.I've been debating on putting this up for a looooooong time. I actually found this around the same time that I decided to start up this whole blog situation. Best part about it, i barely remember the "subject", i remember how i felt but remembering her, kinnnnda hard. but this is a poem i wrote around age 19.deeeppp.this is completely uneditted too.take.a.look.



As time passes on,
Thoughts of whether or not authentic feelings of our love ever really existed circle throughout my existence.
From times of endless smiles to now times of unanswered questions as well as an awkward period of silence
What-ifs used to run through my consciousness
Unknowing of whether everything that I sought was in you or I so deeply yearned for and gave to you undeservingly
In hindsight, things are easily understood,
As to why we do the things that we do
Your fear and my unusual feelings stand out above all else as to where we went wrong
Or could it be something as simple as a lie, a desire of one to need the attention of another with no regard for their emotional stability standing?
But it is said that that the actions of times past prove all truths to be self evident
Then yours in my life should be seen as one whose verbal requests do not correspond.
Visions of largely burning lights glimmer from your subsistence
But deep inside you, great distress and clouded thoughts of self admiration rule underneath the smiles
For it is not that a relationship was being sought out but rather a friendship that could’ve been developed
But was not for the supposed fear of feelings developed that would lead to love,
Since when is that a quandry for any man?
Never has one seen another desire so much to be loved but at the same time be so afraid of the things that that love brings.
For it is easy to seek love in one, where you see psychological dominance as an end result and can attain that with great ease
But to see one where the future with that person is the first thing that comes to mind, and deny love.
Are these actions because ones age supercedes their thought process
Endless questions of whether or not a potential love between two similar yet different souls run through my mind, thoughts that only you will ever know.
Feelings overcame my mind too quickly,
Which is not a fault of yours?
a challenge I sought and found more upside than any other situation that presented itself to me in the recent past.
The attraction of opposites and foreseen signs that let to an area of nothingness
But never has the one seen another so afraid


to be.



oh. and fyi. this was the last time i think i was nice nice to a girl -shrugs-



life.happens.

Don't Break Rules...or I'll Protest.maybe.

'Cause p*ssy's only p*ssy,

and I get it when I need it

-drake

november.18th

Weird to say this but, sex is no longer a necessary daily occurance (it was, at one time, oh it was), nor do I need it to be right now where I'm at in this life, it complicates too much and adds wayyy too much unneeded stress. Now this isn't because I like sex less or anything like that, anyone who knows me knows I l-ve sex and all that comes with it. There's just way more important things going on with me. getting it isn't the issue, its the convos and feelings that come after that i cant mess with. I've played this game TOO many times before to the point its damn near a script for it that repeats itself. We meet. We establish the rules up front like this is what its gonna be. Late night sex n such and that's IT. Maybe I stay the night cuz I'm drunk when I come over but that's the extent of it, we don't talk on the phone, we text and see eachother in person. But eventually, usually sooner than later comes the "well why do you only call me after you get outta the club?" question or the "why don't you come over and see me after class/during the day?" question. That was NOT the deal. YOU ARE BREAKING RULES! Based on my interaction with women, the whole friends with benefits and/or f.b. scenario doesn't work, sorry, someone either starts liking the other or someones feelings get too involved and peoples communication, or lack there of causes a lot of problems. This is why I think its a lot easier to have sex with someone you actually like because when you go in, you actually want then to like you. Like in dealing with someone who you talk to exclusively or someone that you just talk to on the regular. Like someone that you wanna "dick down" honestly and leave them not being able to gather their thoughts when you get done and really not have a problem with them wanting to talk to you because you dig them too on a more than sex level. This is not a new problem, its happened countless times but I just do stuff when I want to because I can sometimes and I have my needs just like everyone else lol. honestly but it gets hard because its damn near like clockwork, you know its coming, sooner or later. I'd rather have sex not only with someone that I like but moreso who I don't have a problem liking me. That's a lot of responsibility and when sex is included its even worse honestly.

Random Thoughts.10.11.:Damn.Network.TV:.

ok. THIS IS THE DISCLAIMER FOR THIS POST:recently my brain has been COMPOUNDED with wayyy too many thoughts that go allll over the place so please if your reading this bear with me its really scatter brained but this is for me to clear my head (please refer to my blogs rules if ur upset -Kanye Shrug-) #justsayin -

you ever think that sometimes seeing things on tv is like tooooo much like your life in certain aspects that you'd rather not touch on that you don't watch?? (Raising my own hand) oh.well I guess I'm the only one (highly doubtful but whatever) but I see certain things on tv it takes me to a very familiar certain place mentally 9 times outta 10. exes getting back together, people finding new l-ve, finding that new l-ve but realizing that they want that ol thing back, none of which is good for my subconscious mental state, honestly. All that stuff just touches home with me in a lot of different ways.
Lemme try and explain.
ok. So watched the finale of Entourage, currently my fave show on tv, I guess its not anymore b/c its over but whatever, back to the point, on the finale, E and Sloan (one of the baddest white chicks in the game, period, she might get a post at a later date, but ok back on topic again smh) go out on a date and E basically makes it up in his mind that he wants her, nobody else in this world, ever, but her, proposes and the whole nine. Everything works out too, but real talk, E took a helluva chance with all this, it almost blew up in his face but it didn't aside from everything before their convo at the place they went to go eat which was an #EPICfail. But it just was wild the places it took me seeing that happen. I feel like LOTS of people in this life have a "Sloan" somewhere in their past. You know that one where you saw that something, scratch that, everything about her was different , but because ur a guy and we're stupid, we let her get away, whatever the circumstancesand/or the stipulations were, she got away, period. You don't obsess about her everyday but subtle reminders of her, take.you.places.period. To be honest that episode just put the what ifs in my head like crazy. I hate being in that place because thinking about it you know where you were and why you were like that when you two were together. sh*t in lots of instances even when you weren't together or had other friends but somewhere, in the back of your mind, you knew that this could happen again. And to be REAL honest, you wouldn't mind it either just when you both were at another place in life. Yea, Entourage took me there, not gonna lie. And has had me on that damn Sloan train since I saw it no lie.

- you ever see the exact same thing as someone and get a completely different interpretation about what you just saw? Yea, happened with Entourage too. I saw that and thought of my ex, not you. Sorry ok?

-as far as these relationships and females in my life go. Nothing tooooo new right now. Maybe my outlook is what messes me up but i gotta few possibles, no sure books (i look at girls i talk to like a spades hand sometimes lol -shrugs-) But its getting cold out, definately about that time. I would l-ve to meet someone who intrigued me to a point that I wanna really get to know them, but I know what I want now at least (baby steps man, baby steps) which is a step in the right direction. You know I'm allllllll about progress so I'm making it.

-this is definately the longest I've gone without having a late night convo partner in a looooong time. seriously. Its really been a while, but I know that single was and is good for me and where I am but I know what I want. I just need someone who keeps me intrigued and makes my heart smile, haven't felt like that in a while and truthfully I miss it.

-ok I already gave it to you about Entourage but for as great of a show as The Game is, I will NOT torture myself by watching it. Toooooo many parrellels so and it shows the end of something that I'm not to the end of, call it a sense of false hope, call it unrealistic expectations, whatever you call it, I'm not watching that show. period.

okay -deep exhale- I got all that out, definately a good thing.

Peace & L-ve

B

.:Apply.Within:.

pretty, witty, girly, worldly

one who likes to party, but come home early

light kinda dark, short sorta tall

slim kinda thick, i swear i l-ve em all

-jay.z

girls.girls.girls.remix.

lots of convos have happened around what you look for or want in a potential partner, you've seen the trends, #wifeymaterial, #inagirl, etc. soo i decided to write it out. ok with writing this, I haven't read it anymore than me writing it so we'll see how this sounds. this is in no particular order, that might be the next task. Other order of business, all of these aren't completely necessary, some are more important than others but there are some that really are necessary TO ME. so with that said...lets see how this goes.

+Swagger- the word "swag" is such a loaded word in this sense. Whether its ya miss independent swag or your own attitude. I just want to find someone who's attitude and drive and personality can hang with mines

+Attitude-i gotta slick ass mouth, period of there's one thing that I know I hate but l-ve its someone who can talk to me and know that I listen to.

+Book Smart/Life Smart- there are like 3 sexier things than talking to a girl that can really talk about important social issues and really have an opinion and make you want to listen, 2 of them have to do with a lack of clothes just saying...whatever sue me.

+Walk in her own two foot prints not following and stepping in mines- someone who's life isn't just about me and mines and has their own dreams and aspirations. I want to be a part of your life, not your life.

+Sense of Humor/Witty-just like women, as guys finding someone of the opposite sex who's funny or can keep up with the conversation adds soooo much to the relationship and the fun of everything. I mean I don't need a Sommore like comedian funny but someone who is slightly sarcastic or witty especially both.always.a.good.look.

+Sense of Her Own Style-as much as I'm the star of the show -cough- I wanna find someone who's fashionably more of that than I am or just thinks about certain things like I do like even if you going to the store there's no excuse for just looking downright FOOLISH. Girls who like/care about fashion are sexy b/c it means 9 times outta 10 they like to look sexy. Sexy always works. For as much as I l-ve women in heels, I seriously l-ve women in leggings, a loose v neck, some shades and some sandals, Its so effortless but sexy at the same time. If I didn't have this thing for women's heels that would definately be number one.

+Comfortable In Your Own Skin- someone who's just comfortable and happy with the person that they are. you can not, and i repeat, you can not expect someone to l-ve you if you don't l-ve you

+A Good Heart- This gets overlooked by a lot of guys some girls are just genuinely good girls and that's something I dig a lot. Just being around someone who's a good person makes you smile.

+Willingness To Let Loose & Have Fun-nothing worse than someone who doesn't know how to have fun or who's "too cute" to have fun. Actually that makes you whack sooooo??? who's really cute now??? someone who can have fun and isn't afraid to have fun is so beneficial, people who take life too seriously make life boring.

+Secure- wow.ummm.this is one that I think is so important for overall relationships success. I think that someone who is secure in who they are and who they are with you is hella important. I've recently began to call insecurity D.O.R. Death of Relationships that and a lack of trust. Be secure in who you are, me personally I could care less about if you're on ya natural steez or your short hair game (which I am l-ving btw, like might be my new fave, but i still like everything else too, don't get it twisted), whatever just be you and be happy with who you are.

+Worldly- not saying you have to have traveled the seven seas or been to every area code Luda claimed on that old ass song with Nate Dogg, but just having a working knowledge of customs and a desire to learn about places and people who aren't your own is sexy to me. Just wanting know and not being afraid to go outside of ya comfort zone is dope and a desired trait.

+Honest/Trustworthy-need I say more??

+Presentable- I know I've talked about this on twitter before but there's nothing sexier to me than a woman who can look classy at work on Thursday, sexy going out to the club on Friday( I know we work on Fridays too just humor me for the mental image), glamourous and classy going to a black tie event Saturday and then appropriate at church on sunday....you.got.me.

+Accepting But NOT Completely Tolerant-men and women live our lives differently especially sexually (for the most part) around this age, so sometimes for women to hear the amount of women a guy has been with is a "deal breaker" for some. -cough- Grow Up -cough- One thing women have to understand is that this life that he WAS (notice the past tense) living, had nothing to do with you and you cannot penalize him for things he did like THAT before he met you or before he you it was gonna be like this between you two. He had no clue you were coming around plus, 9 times outta 10 guys just do all that "sticking n moving" just to fill time lls. Honestly. But at the same time we (or I) don't want someone who let's you get away with murder either. Sometimes with men were like children and you have to say what you mean and mean what you say with us for it to really register for us.We all need boundaries, the faster you establish the rules on what is expected the better communication is, the better the relationship is.

"I know my past aint one, you can easily get past but that chapter is DONE"

+Not Afraid To Speak Their Mind- relationships are teams, if I can't depend on you to keep it real with me if I'm wrong about something that happened with me and a friend of mines then who can I?

+Gets Along With The Family-this one is important, very important to me. My family is my world so if you can fit in and I don't have to babysit you and I can leave you alone with them and you can hold your own....respect reeeeespect.

+Being Considerate- This is personal for me. I think that consideration sides with respecting someone so like if you're considerate to them then that shows you respect them and vice versa. this is all the small stuff, say thank you, open the door for her, dont disrespect eachother, say sorry if you messed up. Therefore when you respect someone who you're with you should be considerate of them and their feelings, period.

ok. forget all the mushy stuff.

+Turns Me On and Vice Versa-ok. all that other stuff is very, very important but having someone who sexually takes you there is seriously important. you have to have someone who sexually stimulates you, you have to turn me on to keep me intrigued. I wanna turn you on too, like seriously lol. to have a great relationship I think its foolish to think that whack sex will help that progress. Satisfaction on BOTH SIDES IS KEY. as a man I can say that theres very few things that are sexier than your super classy girlfriend who everyone respects but at the same time whispers stuff in your ear that make you want to run not home but to the car and get it in. or the girl who takes you to Vicki Secret with her to try stuff on and then you end up in the dressing room with her....lol need I say more?

+And Of Course Beautiful-i mean I believe this goes without saying but I'ma say it...you have to be beautiful and I don't just mean physically(although I do mean physically too) , I mean an overally beautiful person. I am a believer that people have less problems when either a.the woman is more attractive by general standards (b/c men deal better with that, well the right ones and b/c women will openly hate more than men and it will become an issue in your relationship) or b. If the two people are comparable looks wise, you ever see just a good looking couple like two just looking people together? You can't say much bad about them huh? Yea see it works.

so. if this sounds like you. do like the title says. lol i'd l-ve to find out.

Forgotten/Never Sent Tweets

ok.i know its been a while but aijuswanarite like Musiq say so whatever. but as I'm sure most of you know I'm on twitter (follow me @KlarkKentdotkom harmless self plug lol), but I have certain rules about what I'll tweet and what I won't. Rule 1. no emo tweets, twitter is not the place for overly emotional-ness(i know i made it up just listen), its for witty commentary, going IN on various topics and getting the news on different things asap. but just like everyone else, I've had moments where I've wanted to send a few selective #emoparty tweets over the airwaves. Rule 2. read it before you send it, there are no do overs on twitter. Rule 3. have fun with it. this is more about rule 1 eventhough i have resisted on twitter, instead I'll share on here. l-ve this whole blog thing, damn.

-only thing missing is a misses.

-#fact "song cry" FINALLY doesn't take me into my own thoughts anymore, finally.

-mah girl luhh me, but f*ck it my heart beat s l o w.

-#fact no bullshit, at one point I would leave whereever.I was if I heard "No Air" over the system, like left shoe stores n the whole 9.smh.

-i still dont bang with Jordan Sparks over that song.smh.

-for the record, I'm single, off the record, I used to sleep with the enemy

-i will never be a prisoner of my money

-#imsinglebecause I still can't write or spell l-ve

-#imsinglebecause I haven't found a good enough reason to not be single -Kanye Shrug-

-sometimes, when nobody's around. i wish you were right here.

ok. so theres me being "deep" i guess, i'm sure I'll come up with some more soon. stay tuned.

#Ready

I'm tryna do it all tonight,

I Got Plans,

I got a certain lust for life,

As it stands,

And everything is going as right

As it can.

-drake

lust.for.life

One thing that's safe to say about 2009 is that for everyone, me included it has meant change. From Obama to WAMO going off the air here in PGH, 09 has been big on change. My life has really been in that mode too. And it will definately be in overdrive for the next few months too. I finally (after having the job for damn near 7 months smh) start my job at PNC next week. I have really been seriously looking for apartments and finally found a few that I REALLY like and I really have a plan of moving out by October. I'm single, and been single but now I can say I'm honestly to a place where I honestly want to and am ready to meet "appropriate" women lol, can't always say that was true (we'll get into that at a later date). But the best part about all of this... I'm ready for it. Like you know sometimes when you have to take a new step in life and you aren't really ready for it or thrilled about it but it has to happen? That's not the case here, I've had time to make my moves and get to this point. I have a GREAT job. Like I really couldn't complain if I tried before everything starts. I'm blessed, to be in the situation that I'm in and to even be able to attempt to do these things I am BLESSED, period. With that said and knowing that he's on my side, I'm ready for this next step. I've really worked hard in preparation for this. I mean though to say that starting for a company in an industry that I am not familiar with at all is slightly nerve-wracking is a very, very fair statement. But I can make it. Shit I will make it. The moving out thing is cool too I think I've been ready for that. I might be biased but I know I have the best parents in the world who will support me with whatever I do and even if I decided to stay home for like a year -side eye-. But I just l-ve having my own space to do what 23 year old young professionals do lls (such a loaded statement lls) I've been pricing things for an apt like I've really been on it with everything lls. Kinda proud of me lls. But I'm just happy with where I'm and and where I'm going, not satisfied but happy. I'm grateful for how things are & where I'm at right now but I know it gets better I can feel it. To most keeping it ups the hard part, for me that's where I'm myself the most at. Stay tuned this show only gets better.

Pretty Girls: Amber.Rose.no words...literally.

Give you ice like Kobe right??

We sorta like Goldie right

The way we mold 'em right

I can make you a celebrity overnight

-twista

overnight.celebrity

So...just to be real this chick is really one of the hottest in the game right now. If you don't think so you either a. Don't have male anatomy (and aren't an honest woman) or b. Don't have a pulse. Yea I'm talking about her, your favorite stripper's favorite ex-stripper/everybodys fave white girl, Amber.Rose.
In a funny convo with some friends a few weeks back one female coffee faced friend of mines said: "Brian, think about it, have you ever heard her speak, liiiike ever???" My response: "not important. I'm not interested in her words....not.one.bit". -shrugs- I meant it, like seriously. If you haven't got the memo, I'm deathly honest occasionally. But seriously, it's her style, swagger and sex appeal that makes her D O P E. So honestly, I don't NEED to hear her speak, I get everything I need from her from the black gossip blogs damn near daily pics of her ass (literally and figuratively). Style wise, she's not afraid to wear what she wants or do what she wants. I mean if there was any doubt just look on top of her head. In a world where dramatic and pathetic overuse of the word swag reigns supreme, as far as new girls go, hers is the only one who can hold a candle to little Miss Um-ber-ella herself Rihanna, believe it. And it also doesn't help that for as out of the ordinary and eccentric as her style is 9 times outta 10 when you see her, she's holding the hand of a black man who's had a mullett and worn stuff way too small, yes I mean Mr. West, she looks normal next to him. So she fits it. I dig it. But all jokes aside, anytime you can end up online daily, in magazines monthly and a haircut that was named after you, with 95% of the people who see you never hearing a word come out of your mouth, you are doing it. Kudos Mrs. West. Kudos. More pics beloooow.

Random Thoughts 9.6

Well alright, okay

I've been gone, and away

For too long, a mistake

But right now, I feel awake

I'm feeling like I'm back (Just like I'm back)

Said I'm feeling like I'm back (Feel like I'm back)

-fabolous

feel.like.i'm.back

I missed you too no need for arguements or fighting. Can't even use the whole "I've been busy excuse. I mean I have been busy.-cough- not.blogging. but not busy per se. Whatever -shrugs- told you I do what I want but just wanted to write these, they'll come every once in a while so enjoy. These are some of my thoughts I just wrote down on last sunday.

-I hate when people try to tell me that I "expect too much"/want too much for myself, don't you dare try and corner my dreams or lower my expectations because of your lack there of. Just had to blurt that out.

-i have a steady rotation of great new music in my CD player right now and it makes me happy, its the BP3, Trey Songz' Ready, Fabolous' Loso's Way & Maxwell's BLACKsummer's night. All great music, check em out. I need to review them on here honestly. Plus I bought all of them and I am not upset about my purchases at all with any of them. Look for the reviews whenever I can figure out how to get BP3 outta my car smh.

-i have only recently realized that my best Saturday's are the ones I spend with either friends or family just hanging out annndd I l-ve it. Just having good people who you can just hang and laugh and drink in a chill environment is really the shit lls. I used to think that my Saturdays had to be filled with clubs, bars, malls and just constant movement but I dig just sitting still. Just thought I'd share that.

-Just listened to two new singles from Wale and Drake, personally my two fave young guns coming up in Hip Hop (J. Cole is gaining ground can't front) . To say that both were impressive would be an understatement. Wale's track "Ice and Rain" takes it back to the days of real storytelling hip hop, I follow dude on Twitter too (seems like a real dude who's just tryna come up and put on for his city, I dig all that), and I really liked the song like it was D O P E to me. But he said something that I really don't know if he's capable of right now, that he has way better tracks than that and that didn't even make the album -side eye- I mean I'd l-ve to be proven wrong but come on man. Maybe I think too highly of the track but, I doubt he has 15 better ones. But, prove me wrong, please. The Drake track is called Fear, personally, I dig the new music from him because I'm sure just like everyone else I have played my So Far Gone so much to the point that EVERY track skips so to hear some new music from him was refreshing. The Lyrical content was definately there, this dude speaks on success and making it in the Game like a vet. I get the "this is it?" vibe from a lot of his tracks but find them and listen to both. Definately worthwhile.

-College Football started. I'm happy. Enough Said.

ok.i was back but i'm about to post again so bye.

.:World Premiere:. .We.Run.This.Town.

This is ROC Nation

Pledge Your Allegience

-jay.z

we.run.this.town

So this is the LEAKED copy of the video for single.number.two. off BP3. I.dig.it. I will be honest, not as much as I thought I would but it's still instantly the D O P E S T video out right now. I definately thought that there would be some actors/actresses in there or something, I mean if you had major actors in the "street single" video for D.O.A., then the crossover smash had to have someone. But one thing I will say, Rihanna.......DAMN. She looks unreal, allvideolong. She undoubtedly was the star amongst stars in this video, hands.down. Her aura (b/c I refuse to use "sw-g", its played and severely overused) in this video was so on point she did her thing to say the least. I still dig the concept of the video but I, personally, was expecting more. Maybe there's like an extended MTV version or something lls. If there isn't, its still hot. The concept alone was better than 100% of videos out now but when people hear about a Jay-Z/Yeezy/Rihanna video that has previews, its not going against what's hot now, people wanted and expected a video that would get played against the best videos ever. We'll see if it does. Take a look, let me know what you think.

And The Crowd Goes.....Silent??

And you already is a star but,

Unless your flawless,

Then ya dynasty ain't complete

without a chief like me.

-beyonce

upgrade.you

So for at least 4 hours yesterday, Twitter was POPPIN lls. We brought up a topic just on a joke but it ended up being something way bigger than we thought it would be. We got a #wifeymaterial.#hubbymaterial trend "battle" going that stretched all the way to deep in VA. and through damn near the whole work day. But more interesting than the witty and creative responses from people was the way the convo ABRUPTLY when one of my boys asked the question:
@iammarcuspopeTruth.. Is an educated, well traveled, honest, opinionated, respectful, classy, beautiful, funny woman really that hard to find?

It was unreal b/c either people just completely ignored the statement or completely logged off Twitter. I really think that we had 2 females who responded to that question specifically (that I saw), there were at least 25 to 40 who were in on the conversation. -blank stare-

Now I'm sure that we could've added some other things as well but with the character limitations that Twitter has, certain things that couldn't be added but were to us, understood. It was just wild to me that everything SHUT DOWN because of that question, even when it was retweeted multiple times. STILL No Response -blank stare- The real of the situation is in my opinion, to find someone with all that plus the other "intangibles" is difficult but like I said to someone who I was talking to yesterday, I just wanna meet someone who has what the characteristics that I ask of myself (give or take a few secondary ones that can be interchangable), anything else is unfair real talk.
Oh, FYI, some of the "intangibles" that wouldn't fit were chemistry, secure, confident, presentable (might go with some of the others but ehh whatever -shrugs-), stylish and a dope sex drive. It was really just a little discouraging seeing a lot of my female friends who are D O P E, get silent -deep sigh-
But yea, ladies next time, someone questions ya'll like that, not saying that you gotta toot your own horn or say that you individually the answer to that riddle, but going on MUTE, the worst move. But I will give you my what I look for in a woman, stay tuned.

Last College Daze

You ever feel alone
in a room full of "friends"?
Wanna let em in ya head,
but you leave em in suspense?
-rick.ross

*Disclaimer: this is gonna be all over the place so bear with me

School started for my school last week, and real talk I had ZERO desire to be there at all. It was an interesting feeling to be honest. I saw all the FB statuses and all that and really looked at it like "shit, I'm happy right where I'm at." Now I'm not the type to regret anything in my life, PERIOD. I am a firm believer in that everything happens for a reason and things happen to prepare you for your future. I def don't regret my college experience, but my last year left me with a sour taste in my mouth to say the least, real talk.

Sooooo truth be told, I could've graduated over last summer, all I needed was 7 hours plus my 15 credit internship which I could've knocked out over the summer and then did my internship in the fall, but I had the opportunity to go back to undergrad for a final HURRAH, who wouldn't? So I did. Plus it was my first real whole semester being Greek and I planned on Going IN to say the least.

There were plenty of things that the last year taught me but one major one was the importance of having real friendships (Not to say that my other friendships were fake at ALL but this friendship was different). Every other semester I was down there, I had my bro down there with me. Regardless of the situation, I knew and NEVER QUESTIONED whether or not he had my back above anything else, and he knew that he didn’t have to do any of the same either. We were both BIG CITY KIDS, we thought the same way, believed in the same things, shit sometimes dressed the same way (not like that weirdos), we both were ASSHOLES lls, were into the same things and weren’t intimidated by each other like some others were, this was my dude no decepticon. We were similar, but not the same at all, alike but not into all the same things, but friends nonetheless. But he graduated in May and moved on, I mean of course we still kept up with each other, we still do, but being there, living together all that, wasn’t what it was gonna be this semester. It took me a while to realize it but that shit is hard when you feel like its just you. For the first time in my college career, it was just me.

A lot of funny stuff happened that last semester. From "friends" blaming me for their personal shortcomings, not talking to people with no reasoning said to them, LB’s turning their backs on you “because of your relationship with a mutual friend” (i guess "Bros (literally) over Hoes" isn't universal, ehh -shrugs-), people just jumping on the bandwagon because it felt like the right thing to do, but when it really gets hard is when the one person who wants to keeps you balanced and be there for you is the exact person who has people thinking crazy about you because they can’t control who they talk to about what’s “going on” knowing that some people just can’t handle certain types of conversations because they are either going through their own “situation” or they don’t have enough mental fortitude to have their own opinion and separate their relationship with you and your relationship with that person. Package all this bullshit with losing the one person who you talked to everyday and night for at that point the last 2 years in some change too that you never thought you'd lose too? It was A L O T at one time. So I’m sure you’re wondering what happened like did I blow up or whatever like that? Nope, I helped myself get by the best way I knew how, I completely engulfed myself in resume building activities (gotta stay focused on my future) and stay as busy as possible to keep myself NOT thinking about everything that was going on. I only flipped on one person, it waws deserving though. It just really got hard being the "villian" or the "bad guy" in the beginning, but after a while like a good human, you adjust and adapt, that's just what you do. You use everything as motivation in life and this was no different, if they got upset with me because I was the way I was then I was gonna get even better.

I mean it got comical at one point. People blaming your security and positivism for their insecurity and lack of direction, and look at you like you're the bad guy b/c you have some sort of plan after college in comparison to their confusion and utter complacency with being where they are. Look and let me make one thing clear, I do not believe that we are all supposed to be "big city people" or "into the life", but what I knew about me was that that place, was not f o r m e, period, so I treated it like what it was, and maybe to some that was what they were comfortable with but it wasnt that for me. I always knew that I would leave that place and not ever want to live there, this is one reason that I was really happy that I met the type of people that I met once I came back home. Like minded, driven, focused but still have the attitude that “WE PARTY BETTER THAN YOU” too, I l-ve it. Coming from that to this has really been a GODsend. I really didn't know what to think or how it would be especially with one of my best friends in Cleveland, another in Arizona and the other (who lives in PGH) in Kuwait protecting the world.


That last year really changed helped me a lot with being comfortable in my own skin and with who i am as a person. It also impacted how I felt about a lot with college and certain people and lots of things like that and showed me the importance of friendships and family. It also showed me that no matter how good of a friend you think youre being to someone, they still have their own mind and think what they want to. Real talk, when my bro was there it was cool, I knew that good or bad we had each others back above all. I learned how to have my own back.

Sexiness.part.one.

And nah she ain't step in blood,

those are Louby's.

-loso

the.fabolous.life

So I have a confession (this isn't any heavy Usher confessions stuff, but bear with me), I l-ve women's shoes, (PAUSE:: NOT ON ME, ON THEM YOU PERVS::)scratch that, I l-ve SEXY WOMEN'S SHOES. Now, when I see the combo of sexy women in sexy ass shoes too -drifting off into my thoughts- it's a wonderful thing. Since as far back as I can remember, I've ALWAYS been into fashion, looking fly, and rocking the hot s#%t of tomorrow, today, but a few summer's back I worked at ALDO and that's when my infatuation for shoes shoes took off. It was always funny because I was good at what I did so anytime an attractive female came in looking to get some shoes, I only showed them the best ones we had, not necessarily the priciest, but the sexiest. I l-ve creative shoes too, like something that was a little daring to buy, like those shoes where you say "Oh I dont have anything to wear with those, but they are B A D," yea those ones. Plus, I had to be pretty decent at what I did because more often than not, they left there with those shoes. I mean it's only right for the sexiest girl to have matching shoes too, right? Now I will always and FOREVER be a face man first (meaning that the first thing that I see with and about you is your face and everything else is secondary), but a sexy face on top of sexy shoes with red bottoms.... no comment. Recently all the pub in the shoe game has been about these Christian Louboutin's, affectionately known in major Hip Hop circles as Loubies (you know we gotta make everything our own -ehh-) with the signature red bottoms on the bottom of every shoe. There are just certain shoes that if whoever you talking to has them on, you want her to keep them on. Catch my drift??? Now I can't vouch for every pair of Loubies style wise but I can say they get it right more than they get it wrong and more than most others. These both are definately examples of keep them on heels. Fellas show ya girls, ladies show ya man, Thank Me Later.

Oh, the pair on the bottom, are Giuseppe Zanotti Leopard Print heels on everyone's fave Cassie. They can say what they want about the girl, she's d o p e. she takes chances and isn't afraid to fail fashion wise, I gotta bang with her for that. I really gotta look hard to see if I've ever seen her in some BASIC heels. ithinknot. two thumbs up Cassie, two thumbs up.

Epic Video Needed: Please Oblige.

You can call me Ceasar with a dark Ceasar,

Please follow the leader, So Eric B. we are

Microphone fiend,

It's the return of the god. Peace god...

(Auh! Auh!)

-jay.z

we.run.this.town

A few days back, Jay, Mr. West and Rihanna released a preview clip for the video for "Run This Town." Maybe its just me (eventhough I KNOW its not, but I guess its just the in thing to say a Jay track is whack -blank stare-) but this song right here, is sounding a lot like an anthem right now. What else is crazy about this is that this is really EXACTLY how I pictured the video, on some underworld, Last Humans on Earth, Mad Max (no, not Mad Mex our margarita spot, the 80's movie) type of video. It just is a "preview", but with an all star line up like this, I NEED this to be EPIC. Not just a music video epic, I need that old R. Kelly "Down Low", MJ "Smooth Criminal/Moonwalker" more of a movie than a music video. But I will call when it releases, the internet will go BANANAS, its only appropriate. Hip Hop needs this type of an epic cross over smash hit where you'll be able to hear this everywhere from the hood spots to the other side of the spectrum.

I N D E P E N D E N T....Are you really now??

I guess there's more good women than men percentage wise

So her chance of having a husband just minimize

I guess that's why she says she ain't into guys

And focus on work full-time to improvise

-kanye.west

improvise

So I had a dope ass convo with one of my female friends (not a lot of em. mentalnote talk about why) and we got to talking about her and her girls and why they were all great girls, you know the type, college grad, mid 20's, own apt/house (maybe a roommate but not mom n dad, feel me?), own job, attractive, own money, own clothes. ALL THAT. Buuuutttt no man. hmmmmm. Sounds like a winning equation to me. I mean personally that's what I'm looking for so I'm like shit gimme an intro and I got it from there lol. That was my first thought, my second was "what's the catch?" I soon found out. In seeing the way they talked about men and how "they aint need a man for nothing but a nut" and that's a direct quote, I promise; them being single made more and more sense. They might as well had been dudes after that cuz I wasn't seeing them at all. Once me and my home girl got back and were talking we had to break some things down. There is a MAJOR difference between desiring and needing a man and vice versa. No one wants to need a man, its unattractive to men; it shows a lot of insecurities in you as a person and is just downright at least a 30 point loss on the cool meter, at least. But there is NOTHING, I repeat NOTHING, wrong with desiring to have someone good in your life. Anyone who's ever been in a worth while and fulfilling relationship can tell you that that's something to be happy about, shit anyone who's ever had a friend who's been in one and seen it can tell you that.



But what these chicks didn't realize they were doing through this was turning off even the decent dudes to them. Let me make this clear....I L-VE independent women, it turns me on and makes me smile all in the same but these I'll make my rules to dating later but one has to be, everyone wants to be desired, especially guys, so when you say you don't need a man for nothing else but a nut, you take that man's man element away from him, never a good idea. The way these chicks were talking I am convinced they're ASEXUAL like shit. Fact: You can not go around to members of the opposite sex and bash them and expect them to like you, it doesn't make sense. The way they were talking all I was thinking was yea, they don't like girls but they damn sure don't like men either the way they were talking. Now I know some of yall saying right now in your head or even out loud "B, that's a defense mechanism b/c of the amount of good dudes compared to good girls is so skewed.". Ok.I.hear.you. But listen when I tell you this....that OD ass attitude is gonna have them single for a loooong time. I understand you can get upset about the ratio but that right there is OD. Period. But they being "independent"...no you're not I don't know what call that but that is NOT being a heterosexual independent woman.



Lemme break it down, here's the difference between that and an independent woman, independent women know that they can take care of whatever they need to by on their own, Period, they don't NEED a man to do for them because they do for themselves BUT they also know that her with a MAN who's doing his thing too is damn near unfair and is a feeling of comfort like that these other chicks not hip too and what its ultimately all about. Them, they don't realize that 1+1 will always equal more than 1+0, simple mathematics people, simple mathematics.

Pretty Girls:Keri Hilson Is B A D.

Admire your style

and your physique and I aint trying to critique

but you deserve a good drink,

so whats up?

-wale

pretty.girls

ummmm...Saw these on one of those gossip sites and felt completely obliged in posting them up here. When I say, B A D, I mean top to bottom, from her to the hair to the fit to those wild ass shoes she has on, that's B A D to me. Honestly, only one syllable or completely stupid, made up, fairy tale words (shout out to SuperBad) come to mind when I saw these pics. Damn, gorgeous-ness, wow...stuff like that.





oh...and B A D.

Facebook? NO. Blog??? hmmmm

Had to play with fire and get burned

Only way the boy ever gon learn

Had to lay way in the cut 'til I finally got my turn

Now I'm on top in the spot that I earned it's MY LIFE

It's my pain and my struggle....

-jay.z

my.1st.song

So remember when everyone was doing all those 25 Things about Me things on facebook like beginning of last semester?? Well, I sorta made one too. Mines just never made it to facebook. Couldn't press the post button, too much exposure. A lot of things about facebook are starting to turn me off plus the fact that I really wanted to be real about it and I have over 1900 "friends" that thats public info to kind of disturbed me, too. Guess thats my social anxiety coming out, oh shit. Cool thing about it too is I haven't even read it since I wrote it (well maybe like twice and I think I let like 3 ppl read it too). This should give you a little insight, seriously. Think about what you are reading and let me know how you feel about it. Who Knows, I might make another Blog Exclusive one.....thats a thought (raising eyebrows).

Get Like B!!! 25+ Randoms

1. Those who know me best know exactly why I didn’t do this until March, lol, I can not feel like I followed someone about doing things so I completely feel justified doing this in April lol. Just gotta try and find a way to be different, and I really don't want everyone in my biz like that.

2. I was born @ my house on my bathroom floor and my dad delivered me with the help of a paramedic over the phone whose name just so happened to be Brian too (wasn’t named after him though), Krazy right?? Ya, I was 2 weeks late and was ready to come out right then and there, so I did. (This will make number 5 make more sense)

3. My middle name is Ross, lol YOU HAPPY??? Everyone knows that I really never cared for it until I was like 21, but coincidentally every girl calls me my middle name (What up Syd? Lol), I always tell people my middle name is Rumpelstilskin, good for dope reactions lol.

4. It’s not that I’m biased at all but I really honestly believe that I have the Dopest Family ever, dead serious. I love the fact that we are all our own people and are all trying to get (or have made it) to the top, and we support one another and challenge the hell outta each other too. I am the baby too, but I want ALL my cousins, aunts, uncles, my nieces and my PARENTS to know that yall are my motivation in a lot of ways that you guys don’t even know.

5. I am a serious, stubborn ass control freak, period. Whew, that felt gooood, don’t think that I ever just outright said that. Lol.

6. I am suuucchhh a smart ass it makes me laugh on the inside at some of the stuff I say.

7. I know that I’m not perfect by a long shot, but I really LOVE the person that I am and am becoming.

8. I party hard and WORK HARDER. Period. That’s how I have to be and was taught to be. It's in my genes

9. I think that my determination and confidence drive me to the heights that I have been to already and the ones I WILL reach. I mean if I’ma talk all this shit I guess I gotta back it up right?? Duhhhhh…

10. I absolutely fell in love with D.C. over Inauguration Weekend and will move there soon

11. Once I make it up in my mind that something is gonna happen or I’ma do something, Consider it done. I’m really driven about a lot of stuff

12. I THINK EXTREMELY HARD AND WILL OVERANALYZE EVERYTHING.

13. I love fashion, shoes, clothes and traveling, That right there is what my pay check will go to religiously aside from the rent lol. And I love women who have sexy shoes and know how to walk/wear them.

14. I hate for people to know a lot about me in general, once again one of the major reasons that it took me so long to do one of these.

15. As a part of my daily routine when I get to work if theres not much to do, I check my email, facebook and black gossip sites like its my job. Mediatakeout.com is like a really bad horror movie to me like I hate looking at it every day because I know a lot of it is complete bullshit and whats coming next, buuuuuttttt I do, everyday. Lol.

16. I handle a lot of things in my head by myself, I don’t like letting people in there. It's a lot going on up there.

17. I really still miss my Coomps (my grandfather), I had a relationship with him like nobody else did and none of the other stuff ever really mattered to me. That was my boy.

18. I really wish I could just fast forward my life to like April 29th, 2009, just wake up and have it be then lol, I really wanna just walk across this stage and kick it with my boys again BAD.

19. Lots of people mistake my lack of emotion for a lack of caring about some particular situation, TRUST, that’s a learned trait and something that I do for me, not you.

20. For as outgoing and personable as I am, I am an extremely private person who really doesn’t let anyone in, theres SOOOOO much stuff that I just deal with myself and don’t even want to let other people in on it. But when I do, You special ; )

21. I’ve got HUGE plans for myself……Stay tuned and get ready.

22. A few nights ago, an old friend told me in the same conversation that I could “charm the pants off a nun” (I thought they wore dresses :/ ??? whatever) and that I have the “slickest mouth in the world”, hey, gotta get a reaction right?

23. More than anything, I want to be remembered, whether good or bad, right or wrong, I want to know that I made my mark and touched people where ever I was.

24. For the LAST TIME, I.A M. N O T. M I X E D. I am the product of two light skin parents period.

25. I am never satisfied, I always think that theres something else that I could have done better or something that I can do better the next time, theres always something else that can be done.

26. I have three major influences in my life right now, Barack Obama, Jay-Z AND Bob Burley (my Poncho), I figure if I can be some type of hybrid weird conglomeration of these three people I think I’ll be doing pretty good lol…..

27. On that note I don’t think I’ve ever said this out loud but...

my dad is my FUCKING HERO!!! Lol

Like the impact that he’s had on people and the type of person that he is and who he's been to me, hasmade me just really makes me shake my head sometimes like on some real WOW shit. Like I really wish I could figure out how to verbalize it (which I will) but that’s just my dude man.

28. I love gorgeous women, period. I don’t think that anything more beautiful was ever created or will be, but I just want one for me lol. I don’t need em all, just one wild dope one lol.

29. People seem to think that I know sooooooooo much about women but the REAL truth is, I’ve done more messing up with them than I’d care to admit and am just really to a point where NOW, I think and pay more attention with them than most. I oughta know a little bit bout yall by now right??? Shit….

30. I’m pretty sure that I’m cool with the fact that me and my sister won’t ever be cool like that.

31. I think that second semester sophomore year, Cooper Hall 2nd Floor was the most consistent fun I’ve ever had. The Handles, The Double Boy, Jone Sessions in the Hallway, Fool!, Chocoloate City Night, Catching People on the Creep Trying To Sneak IN The Hallway lol, Room Battles, McGee Kicking Everyone Out when JT Left lol, Everyone walking by and slamming the shit outta our door, I could go on forever. Shit was sooooo funny everyday. Shout Outs to Chris, McGee, Peak, Jim Tim, Drop, Fitz, JohnRay, Burks, Crow (Yo, Fall Back Son!!! Lmao) and EB. That might’ve been the funniest semester ever and my grades def reflected it lol.

32. I hate giving up on stuff and people, everything that I ever have I try to put out of my mind but I definitely still think about it all a lot.

33. My Frat’s the SHIT!!! Shout Outs to My Khapter Bruhs, BE, AO & every other fly N.U.P.E. rocking that Krimson & Kreme. YO BABY YO!!!

34. My calmness in stressful situations makes less confident people really nervous, I just really have a lot of FAITH and I know that everything is gonna work out. No reason stressing whats already done right?

35. I am really extremely focused on my future, like I really wanna get there and do all these big things I think and dream about, but wanna really learn something about me, listen to the last verse on Successful by Drake…might find out something never thought about.

36. LOL I don’t think that being really, really attractive is enough in the world where I’m trying to go or to be wifey, I mean intellect and some personality has to be a part of the equation too

Ok. so that was semi deep and I really hope it gave you something about me, but like I said I really feel like I should do another one but ehhh, we'll get to it